What I Am Without

from Sycamore Street (Remixed) by Familiar Theme

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've been looking at myself
and I can't reconcile who I am with what I am without
I've been closing my eyes every time I felt a struggle
Hoping I'd wonder back to places that I could see
but I know that this person is all, all I'll ever be.

I told myself that I'd be fine pretending
I could live without an ending
when I couldn't live you
I wished I had
a place where I could show myself I wouldn't disappear
but no I couldn't find it here.

I've been
walking down a line that leads away from what I know
I can't show myself
this hell is home but I can't tell
these regrets make it clear
I can't find myself if I stay here

I told myself that I'd be fine pretending
I could live without an ending
when I couldn't live you
I wished I had
a place where I could show myself I wouldn't disappear
but no I couldn't find it here.

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from Sycamore Street (Remixed), released October 18, 2015

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